"Temerarious Tome" oil and gold leaf on canvas 2008.
I was on my last leg with Seattle when I started this painting. I had lived in Ballard,1st Hill, South Lake Union, West Seattle, and Capital Hill when I came to conclusion I was ready to go back to California. Rent at this time in Seattle was on the rise and now has tripled since I left. I thought long and hard at defining happiness. So I started this idea in which is a riddle: In the accidental book of life and faith, is the light we feel greater than or equal to a tangible means of hope? After my mom arrived for yet another wild ride into the unknown of Los Angeles, I finished this painting. I realized after living in Seattle that I could tangibly handle the rain in life but I like to wake to the sunlight of the day more often then feeling the rain. I get so deep with my art it stirs my emotions that waking to rain daily had its toll on me. I need to awake to a beautiful day after plunging deep into my soul. I'm also a runner and always have been a runner. Tis true about telling the truth and running. I just wanted the fairytale back as my running ground. I figured maybe just maybe I could at least be happy with sunshine while no matter where I go there I am with myself. I can't stress how many hoops I've jumped getting around having a big enough space to paint. I told myself in my twenties that if I were to make art like rock and roll, my twenties was the time to run with it. I think some of the best works of creativity came from finding that accidental story that tells itself. I now know if you are awake and aware of all the signs,opportunities jump at you. It's literally about jumping into the unknown and taking the risk. This was my third move into the unknown of city shopping, I felt pro at this point. I wanted my thirties to be about marketing this product I call my art. I wanted to conquer the mega phone of flash and fake. It has been a wild and maturing ride that has shown me how much heart I truly have for this world. I'm glad I pay attention to the signs through art and took the risk even if I didn't understand it at the moment.