"Angel of Deep Blue" a painting that haunted me so bad I moved to California. Just you wait, my art gets me to do some bizarre things and this one is more about love and death. This one dates back to 2002 at a time I was doing some serious soul searching. A lot of my work deals with fire and water, it's all metaphorical in what I am reading. At this time I was reading Taoism and Nietzsche, with a love for Bukowski. I'm a Truth Teller with my art but I find the truth mainly unromantic and needs to be pretty. This piece is 1'x3' ink on sheer synthetic is of a dragon that flows through out 3/4 of this piece while the mask and face are at the bottom of the deep blue. Part of the story is about a blue faced angel fish and how they are solitary fish unless they find their soulmate. I had the idea while trying to love again after surviving a violent past but my emotions and insecurities got the best of me so I destroyed it. I recreated it the day I found out my favorite cousin was killed in a car wreck. I worked with him for years trying to get him to believe in himself which was hard since he was raised in an abusive family. He was 19 and got accepted to Alabama University, I was so proud til the day I got the call he was dead. People don't understand grieving til you rip down a curtain and place it on a glass table and paint your tears away in which I did that day. I realized I wanted to love but it's so hard when you are battling mental scars of something that weighed you down to the darkest spot of the ocean of chaos. Truth can be so ugly that the only true way to speak it is through a poem. Poetry came out of me in this one along with titles of some of my favorite Pearl Jam songs encrypted within. Pearl Jam was the voice that got me to survive a violent past. "Angel of Deep Blue"
Angel of deep blue
Vibrant are your hues
In your world I go it alone
Swam beyond the black
Wonder how you live
In hiding or out of reach.
Waves push me, pull me
Through your depths I see
But your garden I cannot feed.
Thin air devours me
The sun shines so far away
Through low light you guide me safe.
Drifting in your sea
I am free to be
In my world without a leash.
~tbfree